I woke up after these crazy ass dreams and thought to myself why am I dreaming of fucked up shit like this. It makes me feel like I’m a nut case like really screwed up in the head. But then I tried analyzing this shit and 19 years into my life a good portion is over with and I already have so many regrets. I had a lot of fun but I could’ve done so much more. This summers gunna blow by super quick an who knows were me and you will be. You have your goals for the summer like partying as much as possible it seems like. I have a feeling how this summers gunna turn out so I’ll prepare myself. Were both working on a thin leash. I think and any fuck up by either of us is gunna be it. This is all so fucked now that in coming to turns with it.

No way did I think it would end this way. 16 long mionths with one person. You try to do every you can just to see that person smile. I feel used like I was just apart of some game. I stood by you through everything yet I don’t no why now. Now that I think back on it, it was always me trying. I’m not saying I’m perfect but I just wanted to make you happy. What are you supposed to do when the person you’d give anything for says fuck you I’m done you didn’t make me happy. Why would u let me get so attached. Why? I really don’t no were to go from here or how I’d respond if I see you with someone else now. The good things dont last forever they say. Idk wats next I wish I didn’t fall in love. I wish there was someone out there who really cared about me. I’m tired of being played like a piano. I hope you realiZe everything I tried to do for you. You were my fuckn queen and I really just was your joker

well someone told me i should make a tumblr cuz she said i always no what shes thinking but she never noes what im thinking so i decided to make one.we’ll see how long i keep this up tho im not much for putting my business on blast. but yee